Up all night

2012-01-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

Hehehehehehehe 2012 already and i've yet to update my blog. Well, have been really really busy with work. Wait, have i ever told you i'm working in Giordano warehouse? As a delivery man cum warehouse logistic? It's freaking cool man! I go places a lot when i'm working as a delivery man. Totally awesome ride everyday while working. Love wasting my time on work cause it's really damn interesting. Hehehe. So now i'm here, blogging. I don't need to go to work tomorrow though cause its my off day. Yay! 2 of days in one week. Hahaha.

Currently listening to The Used. Damn they're legends. Their lyrics really hit me. Awesome lyrics = Awesome band. So was listening to them, i decided to hear 'Blue and Yellow' by The Used. This song really brings me back to where i was with you. Those days. So i was browsing through the lyrics, trying to understand it. Then i came across their chorus.

'Should've done something, but I've done it enough.

By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you.

Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste some time with you.'

THIS REALLY HIT ME. I LOVE THIS SONG TOO MUCH. I LOVE THE CHORUS. ITS REALLY MEANINGFUL. THANKS THE USED, YOU'VE REALLY HELPED ME TO GO THROUGH THE DAYS I CAN'T DO IT ALONE. I FUCKING LOVE YOU!

2011-12-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

You know, i've always wanted a singlesary. As in, you're single, you have a monthsary for yourself. Just like couples do, only theirs are monthsary. So, happy singlesary to me! 2 years and 1 month! Shall celebrate soon :)

2011-12-10T22:36:00.000-08:00

Whoa its been a month i didn't update my blog! Seriously for a guy to actually update their blog everyday or even once a week is totally out of the question! Guys to actually keep track of their lives and actually post it on a blog? NO WAY. THAT'S CRAZY STUFF. So its December, almost to next year. Oh yeah, second week is round the corner. Time flies man time flies. But hey! 2011 is fun for me though. Even bad or good everything turn to be just fine. It's just a matter of time. Lulzxczxc i want to sleep now. I've done my daily chores. Goodbye for now :)

2011-11-02T10:41:00.000-07:00

I got nothing else to say, Bloggy. It seems not everyone are enjoying the start of November. I was just being stupid enough to think that everyone, almost everyone are having a good start of the month. Guess i was wrong. Maybe it was just me. Heartbreaks everywhere, fights everywhere, tears all over. It sucks to have these kind of cycle. Every month without fail. I hate this. I'm so sorry i don't have anything to say. But i want to complain. Yes Bloggy, only you can stand my angers. Just endure okay? Hahaha i got no pets so you be my pet for a moment. Pet website. Cool enough i guess.

Anw, i'm so sorry for everything that happened. I'm so sorry i couldn't be there. Even if its on the phone. I know we've never met before only one time and we only exchange hello and goodbye but i'm sure i will always be there for you. Even if i don't know you that much. But i'm trying my best to know you in every single messages. I know you're breaking hard, tears dropping when you think about it but i know, i swear i know you're strong. Everybody is with you even if you don't know. Everyone is always on your side. You have my support. Get through this and bounce back to happiness. Yes, happiness is waiting for you. I'm so sorry if i'm being gay (your description of gay) but i think i like it. Hahaha.

Have a great day, Bloggy and my readers. No, my reader. Yes!

2011-10-31T14:04:00.001-07:00

I guess i've been acting a little bit paranoid these few days. I mean its okay right? To be paranoid at times. Not always i've been this way. Actually the whole October i've been paranoid. Gosh this sucks. My emotions are pretty fucked up. I know why i was paranoid and a bit self centered at times. Maybe because i'm afraid of losing my love ones or they abandoned me like how my dad did 9 freaking years ago or certain somebody ditch me 2 years back. I can't live like this... I just can't lose anyone right now. I want to be secured again, protected by everybody. You know those kind of feelings when you're surrounded with loves? Those heart warming feelings? Those faces that makes your day better? Those times when you wake up with a smile on your face and times when you got nothing to worry about? Yeah i miss those times when everything was good and perfect for me. I guess this stupidity of thinking shenanigans stuffs makes me paranoid. I shouldn't feel this way but i guess its okay? Once in a while...Enough talking. Let November decide my story for a change.

2011-10-20T04:27:00.000-07:00

My blog has been collecting dust eversince i last blogged. Heh dust. WTF. Sooooooo, nyan cat so cute. Okay bye i got nothing to blog hahaha sorry! Oh yes! Saturday me and friends having picnic. AWESOME OR WHAT?!!!! But in the morning i'll be having soccer. Okay goodbye for now. No i don't wanna say goodbye cause eventually we be back again like how i'm back with my blog. So i'll just say see you around :)

2011-10-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome!!! Met Izzuan, Shaqdah, Sally, Irene, Kathie, The other girl, Alson, Yimling, Michelle, Michelle's friend, Yan, Miko, Hanaffi, Mas Hazwan, Evangela, Pavi and friends. It was awkward, yes. HAHAHA. So Alson's group made it into the finals which is tomorrow. Might be going tomorrow but i don't know. Awesome musicians out there, very very talented. So headed to Cineleisure to eat with my gang while others heads to Scape. While on the way there, I took a picture with a 'Spartan' guy. HAHAHA i don't know why i was being random and we knuckled each other. Awesome! So....

I picked my grey shirt today, which is 3 years old now. Haven't been wearing it for 2 years. Well, there's a story behind it. I still remember it clearly. I bought that when i'm still with Kamilah. Wore that shirt for 2009's National Day. I remembered that i was meeting the usuals. It was a Sunday. Suppose to go with the others but i decided to meet Kamilah as she was having church on that day. So i met her at Raffles Place. When i reached, she texted me, called me asking where i am. I was already there waiting for her. I ask her to meet at the MRT station which exits to a certain bank. Big buildings. I waited for her there but she still have yet to arrive. Then, she said she's lost cause she can't find the certain building. So i was panicking. I went around looking for her. From Raffles to Clarke Quay to Raffles. But still i couldn't find her. I was drenched in sweat cause of the hot weather. Finally i called her and ask exactly where she is. I kept finding her for 1 hour. I didn't give up. Keep finding her with all my sweats and finally found her. So my grey shirt is a memory for me. Forever i will remember this. This was the first time i really did something special for somebody. I will never forget this :')

2011-10-14T19:07:00.000-07:00

Omg why am i so jealous? Damn kill me now can please please please.

2011-10-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Ugh bad start to October. Wisdom tooth grown over the past 2 years and i didn't know? WTF. I thought it was just a bump but in the end its a tooth. How can that be?! I cannot eat properly nowadays. But add to the advantage, i can slim down a bit. HAHAHAHA. I will have it removed immediately but where to get that thousand bucks?! Why won't money fall from the sky... It's so much easier. Btw.....

Some problems already settled. I'm happy for that. Now i understand the real meaning of true friends. We may get stuck in all sorts of situations, all sorts of problem but it's the 'in thing' that makes us closer. The 'in thing' that makes everything solved. Yay for the 'in thing'. But everything will come back to step one. Choosing your friends. It all comes back to fighting, arguing and all sorts of problems. This is life. Life is so unfair. Come to think of it, even family problems too. IT WILL NEVER STOP.

Yes now it all comes down to this. I may never be the wise one or the rich one but you can count on me to be there whenever you're feeling down or feeling useless. But please, never use me for all sorts of stupid things. Like when you got your happy moments. You could at least say some good stuffs to me or share your stories. Instead, you throw me aside and you totally forgot about me. Fuck, you're heartless. You ever heard of a sentence saying, 'What goes around..Comes around'? If you don't, listen up to Justin's song. Maybe you should.

2011-10-02T00:05:00.000-07:00

I just feel so agitated these few days. I keep all those problem to myself and now i'm the only one whose dealing with it. Sighs, if i wouldn't have the habit of keeping the problem and would let go, i wouldn't be like this. Angry, revengeful, cranky. Maybe i should turn back to drinking.

2011-09-29T23:44:00.001-07:00

Hey ho, lets go! I got nothing to blog today cause i'm not doing anything. Anyway, Fadhila is back. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz okay bye.

2011-09-27T23:00:00.000-07:00

OH SHIT I LOST THE LETTER F BUTTON ON MY KEYBOARD!!!! Doremifasolatido now im waiting for my teh. teh is the shitzzxc! So i'm listening to Death Cab For Cutie's I Will Follow You Into The Dark. Good lyrics with simple rhythm. I wonder why they still a bit underground. Hmmmmm so............................ i got nothing to say. Goodbye. Lets see whether i'll have a productive day today.

2011-09-27T13:12:00.001-07:00

I miss mehmeh :(

2011-09-27T03:22:00.000-07:00

I'll never let you down boy
I'll never let you go
Your subtle hints of life
Is so innocent and scary
So telling that you're here boy
She says as if she knows
When god took her with time
God made me quite alone

It's like the universe has left me
Without a place to go
Without a hint of light
To watch the movement glow
When our song is slowly starting
The memory felt so real
At first against my will
But God invented chills

Yeah I, I saw your ghost tonight
The moment felt so real
If your eyes stay right on mine
My wounds would start to heal

The kids are in a hurry
And I'm just full of fear
The lights make bodies blurry
It's getting hard enough to hear
It's like the evidence is cared for
And evidently clear
If I never leave this dance floor
Then I'll never leave you here

Yeah I, I saw your ghost tonight
The moment felt so real
If your eyes stay right on mine
My wounds would start to heal

I felt your ghost tonight
And God it felt like hell
To know your almost mine
But dreams are all I feel

Yeah I, I saw your ghost tonight
It fucking hurt like hell
I felt you here tonight
But dreams can't all be real

I saw your ghost tonight
It fucking hurt like hell
I felt you here tonight
But dreams can't all be real

2011-09-26T10:57:00.001-07:00

ITS REALLY FUCKING IRRITATING. REALLY.

2011-09-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

Whoaaa yes! Im back to blogging! Its been almost 1 and a half year. Teehee. Can't expect much though. Its either i'm too lazy to blog or maybe.....Just can't handle having a blog. So, these few weeks has been really great. But one thing for sure, something is still bothering me. Had a fight with few friends. Learnt something. There are just people you can't trust. Let alone close friends or just normal friends. Been trying to figure out whose been telling stories. Oh yes, finally, i'm over everything that happened in the past. I will now look forward to the future. Oh and yes been getting to know Shaqdah(Nurul) and Salina. HAHAHAHA they are so FUNNY!

What ever happens, let it happen.

2010-10-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

Hi, i'm Emily. Suhaimi's friend here. Hmm just helping him to update his dead blog as i wanted this blogskin codes. Hehehe.

Yeah, i know that its been like months since he last updated and that's expected lah, because for a guy, its kinda hard for 'em to maintain a blog and update it everyday. Hahaha.

I got no idea what to blog for him. But all i can say is all the best for his studies and hopefully he'll score well prolly get a job that he likes and continue from there.

I think i shall end here then. Goodnight everyone and yes, have a great day! :)

2010-07-24T14:15:00.000-07:00

FUCK 2010. Worst year of my life ever and yeah, i really miss you a lot.

2010-04-25T03:39:00.000-07:00

Ok. Its been 2 weeks now. May's coming soon. I mean, the month. Not anyone. I've been skipping school for a week. God, i need inspiration. I need motivation. Self motivation dont do me good right now. Dammit. Have i lost everything? Is my life out of control? Even i, Suhaimi Sukiono, cant even answer his own question. What matter most, is someone. I have to wait!

2010-04-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

If only i can tell her i really miss her, i would. If only she knows that im thinking about her everytime, im glad. If only we be back together, im very happy.

2010-04-07T02:06:00.001-07:00

Im miserable here without you.

2010-04-06T02:57:00.000-07:00

I REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW CAUSE I REALLY CANT AFFORD TO LOSE YOU AGAIN):

2010-03-01T04:58:00.003-08:00

Currently, at michelle's crib. Enjoying it. Ok, byeeeeeeee bitches.

2010-02-27T11:24:00.001-08:00

I realise that education is damn important to us. For the past 4 years, i didnt realise its really important. I didnt do anything. I just be myself. I didnt change my behaviour. I just go with the flow not caring about whether i pass or fail. Epic failure i assume. But i got my inspiration with me. She's the one. She inspired me a lot. For once, i thought she had given up on me. But she didnt. Instead, she told me inspiration stories, words whom she heard from. All those words, is stuck in my useless head. I promise that i will never give up trying. I will always try to do my best in everything and most importantly, show that dickhead(Dad) and the people who looked down me, i'll prove them wrong! Yeah dickhead, i'll prove you wrong. You can die there with your family. When you're dead, i ain't coming to your funeral crying. Instead, i'll be the first one to smile cause at last, i can bury you with my own hands and all the burden you gave to us, is finally gone. I hope you die a lonely death, i hope i won't be there cause you don't deserve people that need you who you already ignored, to attend.

2010-02-21T12:58:00.001-08:00

Seriously, nothing has come the way i want. Its like, everything's falling to pieces bit by bit. Siblings been fighting non-stop. Mum's been stressing out about everything and been crying all this while. Niece and nephew, been crying and tolerating all the fighing at home. Me? I cant do anything about it. Whenever they fight, i dont know what to do. I just cant stand it anymore. I cant tolerate those shouting and crying everynight. I feel like running away from home. Every got the feeling of being the youngest in the siblings? Its like, you feel like its not a family nomore. Bit by bit, you keep thinking to yourself why the hell you're in this world. Whats happening. I dont know why, but i think there's no happy ending to the family. There's no peaceful and cheerful sound in the house no more. Just no more.

2010-02-17T07:09:00.000-08:00

I still love you, thats the reason why i still care for you babe.

2010-02-16T20:08:00.000-08:00

Ok, sooo. Life has never been so boring and lively. Always full of fun, laughter and then goes back to sadness and tears. Ups, and downs. Biyaaaaatch! This, is exactly what i've been trying to avoid since the start of the new year. Didnt manage to do it so. Like i said, 'ups and down.' You guys havent been paying attention aren't ya? Huh?! Welcome, to my life. I was thinking how much michael jackson paid for bleaching and doing a nose job -.-

2010-02-13T12:27:00.001-08:00

Ok. Firstly, dont believe fieza cause she's lying and its not true. Secondly, i think its like my 111432525205934543 blog being made again and again. I dont know whats wrong with my previous blog. Thirdly, i'm not sleeping cause im going to indonesia with my dad(ass). I hate being force. But what the hell, i just go. But not sincerely though(HAHAHAHA.DOUBLE-ASS). So yeah, i might be going minimum, 2 days. Maximum, 2 weeks. Fuck, lucky i can choose when i wanna go home. Im going to miss these 2 days or 2 weeks here. A few more hours, i'll be going. Yeah bitchess, im going to miss everyone especially,(youknowwho). I bet ya'all that (youknowwho) wont miss me. Wtf. Anyway, screw valentines day. Like seriously. Fuck it. Goodbye.

2010-02-11T06:29:00.000-08:00

Hi, fieza here :D suhaimi says that he is proud to be a Japanese pornstar. HAHAHAHAHA :P